I managed one whole day and one whole morning, which almost equals two days but it doesn’t really. I thought having a break would be good, give me some perspective on why the wordy block is returning, but I didn’t take into account the REASON I’ve been blogging every day which is to give me something to focus on that helps in the battle with the doomy-gloomies. And to get my brain into some sort of working order again. And to help me ignore the hyperacusis and tinnitus (which are getting worse so I think that might have something to do with the wordy block).
Plus, do you know how long a hour can feel like to a bell-head She-Hermit who can’t keep two thoughts straight in her head? A LONG FUCKING TIME, that’s how long. A LONG, LONG, LONG, FUCKING TIME.
So I’ll continue to ramble and rant for now and see what happens.
The Depressed Moose
/ July 21, 2012welcome back! (in zombie type voice) “one of us, one of us”
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Garry,
Should I be scared now?
Love Dotty xxx
The Depressed Moose
/ July 21, 2012depends on your zombie fears. I am a cute cuddly zombie type (ahem…)
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Garry,
I like all zombies – except one.
Love Dotty xxx
The Depressed Moose
/ July 21, 2012which one? is it the moose shaped one?
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Garry,
No, it’s the little shitey pygmy were-zompire shaped one.
Love Dotty xxx
clownonfire
/ July 21, 2012Le Dotty,
I love your rambles [Le Clown is feeling sentimental today]. So no snarky comments for you.
Le Clown
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear clown,
No snarky comments? Are you sickening for something?
Love Dotty xxx
P.S. Thank you.
clownonfire
/ July 21, 2012Dotty,
Nah. Really. Perhaps I just need a few more cups of coffee.
Le Clown
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear clown,
Drink up then.
Love Dotty xxx
Missus Tribble
/ July 21, 2012Dear Dotty,
I suffer from hyperacusis too and it annoys the ever living fuck out of me. Sometimes I can’t sleep during the summer because someone in the block of flats near my house leaves a window open and has a fridge humming away BUT NOBODY ELSE CAN HEAR IT!! It’s a part of my autism but I don’t have to like it.
If my wordy block is really bad I have another blog where I type complete and utter inane bollocks until something intelligent comes to me so that I can blog here instead.
Love, Missus Tribble xxx
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Missus Tribble,
I HATE the hyperacusis, it makes the tinnitus ten times worse AND the Hermititis more difficult to fight. Sorry you have it too, it’s a bastard.
Love Dotty xxx
stuff I said
/ July 21, 2012I am glad you did not stay away…I am just getting to know you.
Welcome back!
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear sis,
Thank you.
Love Dotty xxx
Kathleen Lourde
/ July 21, 2012I’ve never had hyperacusis, but I know that when my psychosis is bad every little noise makes me leap out of my skin, like it’s gotta be a demon come to get me, so I can sort of relate. I’m glad you’re back blogging again. Blogging may help you keep sane, but your blogs also help me keep (somewhat) sane. So, I’m so happy you’re back! (jumping up and down)
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Kathleen,
Sorry you ahve the fear of noises when you’re bad. The fear – that’s exactly what it’s like – normal noises aren’t normal any more, the background sounds I used to know and recognise, like a lawnmower in a neighbour’s garden, can be terrifying because they’re amplified out of all recognition, so the distant lawnmower sounds like a giant fly buzzing round my head (swiping it away makes me look like I’ve gone completely loopy, but that’s anyone’s instant reaction to a fly near their head). I’m having to relearn all the background noises that have changed – all machinery, traffic, running water (at least I can hear if a tap’s dripping upstairs!!) etc etc.
Love Dotty xxx
Sword-chinned bitch
/ July 21, 2012I wondered how you were enjoying your vacation in the spare room with the jagged stairs… I’m just plain glad you’re back. To chime in on the Depressed Moose’s chorus — gooba gabba gooba gabba (courtesy of the movie Freaks)
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Swordy,
It was nice, but bruisy when I fell off.
Love Dotty xxx
Madame Weebles
/ July 21, 2012Dear Dotty,
Dang, hyperacusis AND tinnitus? That would make me homicidal. How have you not killed many people? (of course, I’m assuming you haven’t but I could be wrong)
xoxo Mme Weebles
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Mme Weebles,
I’ve felt like killing people. Seriously. Or at the very least, punching them hard in the face.
Love Dotty xxx
Dorothy
/ July 21, 2012Dear Dotty,
my sympathies and I have been sick….head in toilet sick…still I hope your day is better for you
Love Dorothy
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear Dorothy,
Poor you – I hope you’re feeling better. Did you have a bug?
Love Dotty xxx
Dorothy
/ July 21, 2012Dear Dotty,
Probably, though I suppose it could have been alcohol poisoning.
In any case, I’ve stopped it again and really don’t want a drink now though I’m forcing water and broth.
Love Dorothy
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear Dorothy,
Ooo, nasty. Hope you feel better today.
Love Dotty xxx
Dorothy
/ July 22, 2012Dear Dotty,
Much better, thanks. A good lesson for me. I’m not indestructible and I think I was lucky to find out early on before doing too much damage. I still feel very tired but not sick. I’m going to keep that memory as long as I can though.
Love Dorothy
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear Dorothy,
Yes, hold on to it. I know it’s a different thing but I came down with a nasty sick bug not long after I’d eaten my favourite pizza one night. I thought nothing could ever put me off them but I was so ill that I can’t abide even the smell of garlic and mushrooms now without it making me heave.
Love Dotty xxx
paralaxvu
/ July 21, 2012Oh, I’m so glad you couldn’t stay away!
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 21, 2012Dear paralaxvu,
I’m like a stinky smell.
Love Dotty xxx
paralaxvu
/ July 22, 2012Not so much a stinky one, just one that gets better the longer it’s around. Not like a Glade candle, doncha know…
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear paralaxvu,
… but like a stinky old cheese.
Love Dotty xxx
paralaxvu
/ July 23, 2012mmm, perhaps limburger? My sister loved it. And I loved my sister. Still do. So I must love you too. (Gosh, I’m glad I took that class in college whose name I don’t remember but it made me think more logically. For a few minutes at a time.)
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear paralaxvu,
Is it smellier than Stinking Bishop?
Love Dotty xxx
Kathy V.
/ July 21, 2012I’m glad you’re back, because your writing helps to fend off my doomy-gloomies as well. Two birds, one stone. You know. Ugh, crap words crap crappy tired wordy block.
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear Kathy,
Poor you. Do you want a Cumberland sausage sandwich? I’m making them now.
Love Dotty xxx
Kathy V.
/ July 22, 2012Dear Dotty,
I would love a Cumberland Sausage sandwich! Thank you!
Love,
Kathy
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear kathy,
You’re welcome. Enjoy it.
Love Dotty xxx
unfetteredbs
/ July 22, 2012Dearest Dotty
a stinky smell that we all love… never leave again…. hang some Hopper in your room next time.
Unfetteredbs
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear bs,
Ha, that’s weird – you just reminded me I have a big posh Hopper calendar from a few years back that I’ve saved to cut the pictures off and frame. I’ve got Lowry all over the house (from a big posh calendar) and a few Jack Vettriano (from a big posh calendar). I got a load of calendars cheap in the February or March, stuck the pictures in frames I got from charity shops and VOILA, some nice pictures that look posh and expensive but cost bugger all.
Love Dotty xxx
unfetteredbs
/ July 22, 2012I dig Jack Vettriano as well…
awesomeness on the art finds! Im gonna look up Lowry.. that is a new one for me.
Cheers
UBS
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear bs,
I LOVE Lowry.
Love Dotty xxx
unfetteredbs
/ July 22, 2012Dearest Dotty
I just requestes some Lowry books from the library… you have done your job today educating the masses
and we just got Karl Pienkofer cds in; I am loving it!
Kindly
UBS
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear bs,
Love Dotty xxx
unfetteredbs
/ July 22, 2012I dig Jack Vettriano as well…
awesomeness on the art finds! Im gonna look up Lowry.. that is a new one for me.
Cheers
UBS
ps I am glad I looked at LS Lowry. Ever check out George Tooker… creepy but oh so good
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear bs,
I’d not heard of Tooker. Thank you.
Love Dotty xxx
thelastsongiheard
/ July 22, 2012Post away, dear Dotty… we love to read your words
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear tlsih,
You might regret saying that when 50 posts a day from me fall into your email.
Love Dotty xxx
thelastsongiheard
/ July 22, 2012Try me LOL
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear tlsih,
Love Dotty xxx
EllaDee
/ July 22, 2012ramble and rant… comment, post, comment, comment, post… ramble and rant… comment, post, comment, comment, post…, ramble and rant… comment, post, comment, comment, post… it’s all good
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 22, 2012Dear Ella,
I’m going to steal your comment and use it for tomorrow’s post.
Love Dotty xxx
judithatwood
/ July 23, 2012Dear Dotty,
I’m glad! I love your rants and rambles!
Love,
Judith
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear Judith,
Thank you.
Love Dotty xxx
judithatwood
/ July 23, 2012pouringmyartout
/ July 23, 2012Awwww… you just love us. And we love you.
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear pmao,
I know. I can’t resist you all (y’all).
Love Dotty xxx
pouringmyartout
/ July 23, 2012We are just that adorable.
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear pmao,
I wouldn’t go that far.
Love Dotty xxx
pouringmyartout
/ July 23, 2012Well, I would.
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 23, 2012Dear pmao,
Love Dotty xxx
PAZ
/ July 26, 2012Dear Dotty,
So you couldn’t stay away, eh? hahah. I couldn’t either…until…our internet was cut off. Back on though.
Resistance is futile!
meheheheh
Love Dotty
PAZ
/ July 26, 2012FUCK! Today has not been a good day, I meant Love Paz xoxoxo
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 26, 2012Dear PAZ,
I haven’t been round to many of the blogs for a while – just trying to get my head straight, it’s been a bit boggly. Plus I can’t keep up with all the reading but I’m trying to stop letting it get to me and just relax about it.
Love Dotty xxx
Are you okay?
PAZ
/ July 27, 2012Dear Dotty,
I know the feeling. Keep trying to let it stop getting to you. Remember you.
I’m eh, meh, teh. I’ll be alright I think.
xoxoxxx
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 27, 2012Dear PAZ,
I hope so. It’s hard, but the old cliches about giving it time are right. The hurt won’t go away but it will ease.
Love Dotty xxx
PAZ
/ July 28, 2012Dear Dotty,
Thank you lovely. I hope it eases soon. God, I hope so too.
Love xoxoxxx
Dotty Headbanger
/ July 28, 2012Dear PAZ,
Big hugs from over here.
Lots of love, Dotty xxx